child_of_the_air | *sighs at my brain*

Trigger warning for discussion of male genital mutilation and discussion of AMAB genitalia.

I think I'm finally making some sort of progress toward having an orchiectomy. I have a couple consults scheduled for this winter, and I'm hoping I can have the surgery this coming summer, though we'll see what happens. Unfortunately, various things, including this, have been helping to trigger my circumcision-related dysphoria.

I've really been embarrassingly lucky in that hormones have made my genitals shrink so much that there's often skin overhanging things so it looks like a (very loose) foreskin. A part of me can't help but want to bring up at the orchi consults that I'd love it if there was some sort of surgery that could tighten up the end or something such that the skin would stay forward all the time, even though I'll never have my frenulum and such back, and it lacks the muscles that should hold it forward.

Of course, this is a horrible idea, since (a) it would probably just confuse/upset the urologists in question and (b) insurance will cover the orchiectomy, I think, but it certainly won't cover anything to fix my mutilated penis, even though insurance helped my parents pay to have it mutilated in the first place.