Brains suck...

[child_of_the_air]

I really hate having a brain; why is this mandatory?

I spent yesterday having a severe breakdown, probably due to a cPTSD trigger, that makes so little sense I don't think I can explain it.

But a sizable portion of my brain just wishes I was dead so I wouldn't have to deal with neurotypicals, loud music, gender, being circumcised, etc...I'm not in any actual danger, though, just miserable. 

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[sorcyress]

*hugstight*

I am glad you are not dead. I am glad you are in my life to talk about rituals, and trains, and gender, and sisterhood and friendship. I'm sorry your brain is being cruel, you do not deserve that misery.

<3
~Sor

[child_of_the_air]

*hugs back and curls up in a small-but-fluffy ball*

I enjoy talking to you, too, and hope I'll get to talk to you when I'm next in Boston, although a sizable part of my brain right now thinks I'm a bad influence who shouldn't be allowed to talk to people.

[sorcyress]

Yayyyy Boston. I can't remember if I know when next time is?

As for bad influence...darlin', I'm a school teacher. I have so many points in "know the difference between good and bad ideas" it's not even funny*. Additionally, ask anyone, I have inherited my mother's ability to be a freaking force of WILL. I promise you that you are not going to be a bad influence to/on me, ever. Scout's honor.

~Sor

*for instance, being a grown-ass seventeen year old and either letting your friend bite you, or biting yourself and claiming your friend bit you, while laughing uproariously the entire time with said friend and like three other friends...that is a funny idea, but also *exasperating*.

[child_of_the_air]

Next time is in a couple of weeks. I am a bit ambiguous on the details, but I should be free later afternoon/evening of Saturday the 11th of May, morning and evening of Monday the 13th of May, and all of Tuesday the 14th of May, assuming more plans don't get made.

*nods* I'm glad there's no danger of my being a bad influence on you. I have so many out-of-control mental illnesses right now that I'm more than a little concerned that some of them are contagious.

[wolby]

brains are terrible and, if elected, i will firmly oppose their tyranny.

it really sucks that tuesday night was such a mess, wish i could give you a hug in person. can i text you some cat pics?

[child_of_the_air]

Cat pics are always appreciated! *Meow!*

[alexseanchai]

♥